genuine value

Everybody wants to be somebody.

We desire significance. We want to be recognized; we want to be known; we want to be loved. We want to be important. This cry for value and dignity bubbles from caverns deep in every human heart. If we are truly to be whole people, we must understand our honest need.

We are not random collections of organic molecules that happened to develop consciousness; so our desire for esteem is part of our very nature, and it is good. But our consumption-obsessed society tells us we aren’t quite good enough. Make yourself better-looking, get more money, acquire more stuff; then you’ll be fulfilled and achieve real success. We desire outward signs to display our preeminence.

Unfortunately, when we seek at any cost to be important in the eyes of others, it is easy to lose sight of the beauty to be found in another person. We are too busy accomplishing great and mighty deeds. The world’s attitude is summed up in the famous line from Gilbert & Sullivan: “When everyone is somebody, then no one’s anybody” (The Gondoliers).

But our Father turns that on its head, because in His great heart, everyone is somebody, and no one’s nobody!

As I have written elsewhere, when we lose ourselves in Him and His desire and purpose, we become more ourselves than we ever can apart from His will. But when we let rightful desires within us run wild and unchecked, they turn into cravings; and cravings, unchallenged, turn into addictions.

My craving for significance is calmed by realizing that it can never be fulfilled by another human, and it cannot be pacified even if I “improve myself.” My heart is at peace when I realize the truth that Yeshua, the Creator and King of the universe, “greatly desires my beauty” (Psalm 45:11). He is the one who created me, created you, created everyone who lives, and He has placed within each of us a tiny expression of His glory.

Somehow, although none of us can really understand it, the eternal tabernacles in the temporal.

So, why do I crave recognition from any person? If I spend my time and energy trying to receive honor from people instead of God alone, it short-circuits my faith and my ability to live truly as I was meant to.

During one of His encounters with leaders in Jerusalem, Jesus issued this stinging rebuke:

I do not accept glory from men, but I know you, that you do not have the love of God in yourselves….How can you believe, when you receive glory from one another and you do not seek the glory that comes from God alone? (John 5:41-42, 44 TLV).

If I scurry about seeking approval from others, I miss intimacy with the one true Source of life who alone can validate my existence. Connected with Him, I have the courage to live selflessly, full of love for others, desiring their good and being willing to pour out my life for them, as Yeshua poured out His life for me.

I will also find myself free to seek first His kingdom and His righteousness.



“I would have all of thee.”

Yes. You would have all of me—

in fiery love, You would possess me,
Your candescent beauty would enflame me,

and I yield, yet I am not consumed;

my guttered passion fanned by holy wind
and upward dancing,

I am burning, breath to breath with desire eternal.

And I know that You will ravish me;
that I—

dulled to glories yet unseen;
drinking from defiled streams;
astray from beauty’s pasture green—

will find my purity in Thee.



thirty-four years of beauty

(This is adapted from a post I wrote a few years ago for my precious wife on our anniversary)

I write with grateful joy today, because it is my wedding anniversary. Thirty-four years ago this day, a wonderful, loving, gentle, luminous, alluring young woman and I exchanged vows before God and family and friends, and our pastor announced we were married.Marriage is exciting and infuriating and joyous and frightening and challenging and wondrous and weird and astonishing. It is a great adventure; it is a comforting and joyous sharing of life; it is two unique individuals daily learning to become—in profoundly mysterious union—“one flesh.”  Marriage is an earthly picture of the love Christ shares with his Church.

I have learned how to be more like Jesus, and how to truly be a man, by sharing this journey with the finest woman I have ever known.

The last chapter of the biblical book of Proverbs contains this question: “A capable, intelligent and virtuous woman, who is he who can find her?”

I can answer. I found Kathi.

My feelings for her today are elegantly expressed in the lyrics to a beautiful song performed by Steven Curtis Chapman titled “We Will Dance”:

I’ve watched the sunrise in your eyes
And I’ve seen the tears fall like the rain
You’ve seen me fight so brave and strong
You’ve held my hand when I’m afraid

We’ve watched the seasons come and go
We’ll see them come and go again
But in winter’s chill, or summer’s breeze
One thing will not be changin’

We will dance
When the sun is shining; in the pouring rain
We’ll spin and we’ll sway
And we will dance
When the gentle breeze becomes a hurricane
The music will play
And I’ll take your hand and hold you close to me
And we will dance

Sometimes it’s hard to hold you tight
Sometimes we feel so far apart
Sometimes we dance as one
And feel the beating of each other’s heart

Some days the dance is slow and sweet
Some days we’re bouncing off the walls
But no matter how this world may turn
Our love will keep us from falling

And we will dance
When the sun is shining; in the pouring rain
We’ll spin and we’ll sway
And we will dance
When the gentle breeze becomes a hurricane
The music will play
And I’ll take your hand and hold you close to me
And we will dance

The music will play
And I’ll hold you close and I won’t let go
Even when our steps grow weak and slow
Still I’ll take your hand and hold you close to me
And we will dance

Thank you, my beloved, for all the years of dancing.



God’s name is not harvey

A few days ago I read a grimly humorous story about a family who posted a message on social media, “Good news! We are OK,” to which a friend wearily replied “I’m sorry, remind me: which disaster are you in?”

The level of destruction due to natural—and man-made—catastrophes we have recently been witnessing is heartbreaking. We all want to do everything we can to help and to ease people’s suffering.

Many Christians are deeply troubled and fearful in the midst of such chaos, and unfortunately, we have seen much conflict and animosity occurring as people entrench themselves into opposing viewpoints, vehemently arguing their case as to the cause behind all the trouble. Some claim the disasters are judgments from God; others react against this, questioning why God would judge one place and not another; and still others try to walk a middle road, claiming that God is merciful, but there are times He does need to judge and we can’t always understand His ways.

These pronouncements and opinions miss the point.

In Luke 13, we read that Jesus was told about a group of Galileans who had been cruelly killed by Pilate. He gave a response that, at first glance, almost seems evasive, but it actually gives us an enlightened perspective:

And Jesus answered and said to them, “Do you suppose that these Galileans were worse sinners than all other Galileans, because they suffered such things?  I tell you, no; but unless you repent you will all likewise perish. Or those eighteen on whom the tower in Siloam fell and killed them, do you think that they were worse sinners than all other men who dwelt in Jerusalem?  I tell you, no; but unless you repent you will all likewise perish.” (Luke 13:2-5)

The Lord had just been discussing the importance of discerning the signs of the times when someone piped up with the account of the slaughtered Galileans, probably with the intent of receiving a response about judgment and retribution. But Jesus clearly pointed out that these events were not direct examples of heaven’s judgment upon wicked people. As He often did, He changed the focus of the question back upon an individual’s responsibility to live in right relationship with God.

So, as we ponder and pray our way through the turmoil and chaos, and wade through all the declarations of doom from self-proclaimed prophets—and the resulting hurt and angry protestations from individuals offended by what they perceive as heartlessness—there are a number of factors to consider.

We understand that God is sovereign; everything that exists belongs to Him. He reserves to Himself the ultimate authority to judge every individual, every people group, every nation. There is a coming Day when the present age will be consummated, and the secrets of every heart will be revealed. In that Day, we will all stand naked before the holy One who sits upon the glorious throne, judging with perfect justice.

It is important to recognize that God has a controversy against every nation (Jer. 25:31, Hosea 4:1), so we are to seek Him for wisdom and guidance as to how we should pray, and not automatically declare “This particular occurrence is a judgment of God upon this particular people at this particular time.” The great truth, and great hope for us, is that God desires all men to be saved. His heart is always reaching for mankind with good-will and kindness. Jesus did not come to condemn the world, but to save it. He said if we believe in the Son we are not judged; if we do not believe, we are judged already (John 3:16-19); and it is a terrifying thing to fall into the hands of the living God if we refuse His grace (Hebrews 10:31). But for us who have been justified, the hands of God are a refuge of strength and comfort and mercy, for we have been tenderly engraved upon them (Isaiah 49:16; John 20:24-29).

We also recognize that at this present time, Scripture teaches that all creation groans and convulses as a woman laboring in childbirth, desperate for the full manifestations of the sons of God (Romans 8:22). It is irresponsible and naïve for us to ignore our own complicity in the convulsions of creation due to sin. Our planet groans and aches with longing for us to fully take our place in righteous stewardship, properly managing our Lord’s good gifts, because then creation itself will be delivered from its bondage to corruption into the glorious liberty that awaits us (Romans 8:21).

So, when we see tragedy strike, it is helpful and right that we humble ourselves and confess our sins—not in morbid introspection, but in humility like Daniel, identifying ourselves with the failings of our people and our nation. As we repent, we also respond with gratitude and worship for God’s great kindness and goodness. We have freely received, so we freely release blessing and life over our nation, proclaiming mercy and healing into every heart and every situation. As children of the great King, ambassadors of His grace, it is our mandate to bless and not curse. We are to be blameless and pure so that we shine as lights in the midst of a warped and perverse generation (Ph. 2:15).

So, do not feel as though you must take sides about “why” tragedies occur. Frankly, there are many “whys” we all must face that do not have completely satisfying answers. But it is vital that we keep as our foundation the clear teaching of Scripture that our Lord is good, and He expresses that goodness to all He has made! At the birth of our Savior, the sky exploded with brilliance as angelic hosts proclaimed the kind intentions of our eternal Creator: “…peace on earth, goodwill toward men….”

We honor our Father when we trust Him. We do not bury our heads in the sand and refuse to face reality; rather, we courageously and boldly live lives of hope and trust in the face of dark trouble and wickedness, knowing that the God of all the earth will do justly.

We are assured that the time is coming when He will wipe every tear from our eyes, and His dwelling will be with us eternally. There will be no sorrow, or sickness, or fear, or pain.

All will be as our God desires. Behold, He makes all things new.

canticle in the darkness

Here is a promise and a comfort most beautiful, spoken to us by our glorious and gracious Father:

The kind of person on whom I look with favor
is one with a poor and humble spirit,
who trembles at my word. (Isaiah 66:2)

Many individuals in the body of Christ have lived long in such a posture; remaining humble, childlike, trusting and trembling before the power of our eternal God and the mysteries of his Word. But after long seasons of barrenness, stumbling on dusty roads through colorless and arid wastelands, their throats have become parched with crying and thirst, and their souls have paled from inability to change their circumstances; their lives becoming a vapor of insignificance.

In this dry and weary land dwell foul and slithering spirits, who hiss with mocking arrogance. “Let the LORD be glorified, that we may see your joy…” (Isaiah 66:5). And so you tremble more violently; not with fear of the Lord, but with cringing fear and despair, because it seems that Jesus is not glorified through your life. You live with prayers unanswered, promises unfulfilled, sins unvanquished, relationships unrestored. Your life seems engraved with failure and your destiny is written by your inability to press forward into the land of promise.

You find yourself agreeing with the voice of the accuser, because his words are based on “reality.” But they are not based on truth.

You are not sculpted in failure, cast as a monument to “what might have been,” but in fact, you have been carved onto the very hands of the triune God (Isaiah 49:16; John 20:26-29) and burned into the affections of His heart (Song 8:6-7).

Your life and your heart of humility and trust–though weak and faltering–is more pleasing to God than you can possibly imagine!

For YHVH takes pleasure in His people;
He will beautify the afflicted ones with salvation.
He heals the brokenhearted,
And binds up their wounds.
The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit;
A broken and contrite heart, O God,
Thou wilt not despise.
Great is our Lord, and abundant in strength;
His understanding is infinite.
(He) favors those who fear Him,
Those who wait for His lovingkindness.
(Psalm 149:14; 147:3,5,11; 51:17).

So we wait—trusting, trembling with hope—for His lovingkindness. Faith is turning our gaze to behold Jesus, and to follow Him where He goes. It is to keep our focus fixed on Him, not worrying what others have (or have not) done or accomplished; not concerning ourselves with what levels of glory we “should have” reached; neither ashamed for things we have done that we shouldn’t have, nor regretting things we have not done that we should.

But you may say, “I have failed too much. I have squandered my inheritance. I have been covered so long in the cloak of despair that I reek of decay.”

In your desperation, hear His response:

You, who sits mourning in the very heart of Zion—though you don’t even believe you are there—I come to comfort you. I gently smooth the ashes of charred dreams from your hair; anoint your head with fragrant oil to cleanse the stench of hopelessness and place on your brow a beautiful garland, woven from my vibrant, shimmering pleasure. I strip from you the grave clothes of shattered hope and wrap you in a mantle of praise and glory, a festive robe suitable for celebration, that as I rejoice over you, you would no longer be exhausted by despair. I will rebuild the broken places in your life; I will restore life to the years that you think you have wasted, and cause you to flourish before me as a towering oak, my righteousness your life-flow. (based on Isaiah 61:3-4).

So now, take God at His Word, believing that He has deposited within you His imperishable, incorruptible seed. You are deemed priceless, purchased with the life of Christ.

…you were not redeemed with corruptible things, like silver or gold, from your aimless conduct received by tradition from your fathers, but with the precious blood of Christ, as of a lamb without blemish and without spot. He indeed was foreordained before the foundation of the world, but was manifest in these last times for you. (1 Peter 1:18-20).

When the enemy mocks, his forked tongue spitting lies: “Let God be glorified, so we can see you rejoice; oh wait, He isn’t glorified in you, is He? You can’t rejoice, can you?”
Here is your response, a full-throated, delirious exultation of victory as part of Jesus’ warrior-bride:

I am so joyful in ADONAI!
y soul rejoices in my God,  
for He has clothed me with garments of salvation,
He has wrapped me with a robe of righteousness and triumph…
like a bride adorned with her jewels. (Isaiah 61:10).


strange fire

Fire was important to Israel’s worship, both in the Tabernacle and the Temple, as it was to be kept burning continually on the altars of incense and of the burnt offering. In both the Tabernacle in the wilderness, and the Temple in Jerusalem, fire on the altar was set ablaze by God himself (Leviticus 9:24; 2 Chronicles 7:1-3). This fire was special; this fire was sacred; and it was to be tended continually.

But in the wilderness, at the very institution of the priesthood, came tragedy born of human foolishness:

Nadab and Abihu, the sons of Aaron, each took his censer and put fire in it, put incense on it, and offered profane fire before the LORD, which He had not commanded them. So fire went out from the LORD and devoured them, and they died before the LORD. And Moses said to Aaron, “This is what the LORD spoke, saying:
‘By those who come near Me
I must be regarded as holy;
And before all the people
I must be glorified.'” (Leviticus 10:1-3).

Our great God is love and mercy and goodness; he is filled with lovingkindness, and he pardons sin and iniquity. But we must never forget that he is holy and pure, and evil cannot dwell with him (Habakkuk 1:13; Psalm 5:4-5).

The body of Christ has entered a season of increased consecration, where the Holy Spirit is causing all of his people to live a greater maturity in the faith. His call has always been that we would walk in the truth he has shown us, and believe the written Word and the promises he has quickened to our hearts. As the coming of our Lord draws nearer, and this present age nears its completion, it is vital that we know him and trust him, finding our life and strength in him.

There are many powerful promises God has revealed to us, and encounters with his presence to comfort and encourage us, reminding us of his power and his commitment to our welfare. But when we find ourselves consumed with vain imaginations such as regrets from the past (I wrestle with this) or fear of the future or insecurity about the Lord’s love for us, are we not coming before him with “profane fire”? When our identity is determined by our accomplishments or the fleeting approval of men, and we find ourselves consumed with fleshly desires and grasping after security, isn’t this placing before the Almighty an offering that he has not commanded?

And when we come before him, seeking to pray the right way, or repent correctly, or worship with the right forms and words; when we demand that he answer our questions so we can understand and believe; when we think we can somehow find favor in his sight through our devotion or our religious activities; are we then not just as guilty as the sons of Aaron, kindling strange fire on the altars of our hearts?

Our Father knows us intimately, and he wants us to bring him our cares, our fears, our doubts, our anger. We cry out to him from our brokenness, and in mercy he heals us. We pour out our anguish because we only know in part, and see in part, and there is so much we just don’t understand.

There is a place we are to bring all our wickedness, our unbelief, our fear, our foolishness, our pain, and our emptiness. It is the cross of Jesus. We lay it all down; and then, when our backs are unburdened of our load of care, our shoulders untethered from the yoke of slavery, and our hands emptied of our own accomplishments, we lay ourselves prostrate before him, knowing that he has taken upon himself every agony, every filthy action, every injustice from every instant of human history–past, present, and future. Then we arise, having boldly entered the Holy of Holies, the very presence of our eternal God, knowing that our hearts have been made clean and our bodies have been washed with pure water. The flame that we then find kindled within is like that inferno that roared from heaven upon the wilderness altar; the glory that flattened Solomon and all Israel at the Temple dedication; the wildfire that exploded on Mount Carmel, silencing the shrieking of Baal worship; the blazing eyes of Jesus that caused John the beloved to collapse as though dead.

We glorify him and he burns within us as he reveals his passionate love, the flaming heart of holy mercy that gives light to our darkness and warmth in our coldness.



In the deep spirit of a man the fire must glow or his love is not the true love of God. (A.W. Tozer, The Pursuit of God).

Nothing of this tangible world–no possession, no deep and loving friendship, no sensual experience, no mood-altering substance, no religious pleasure–can comfort and fill the human heart with joy and delight like the presence of Jesus.

After many years, I have found that all my “spiritual stuff,” upon which I depended so heavily to bring me into wholeness and holy living, amounted to nothing but, as Paul wrote, a pile of dung. My pleading, my grasping, my agonized wrestling, my guilt, my shame, my repentance, my hopeful but ultimately vain promises to “do better”; the memories of these are seared across my soul; welts caused by the fiery brand of dead works.

But to be engulfed in the inferno that is the love and presence of the Triune God; to encounter it, even if but for a moment, kindles within me the light of truth and flame of holy passion. It alights my spirit and creates a desire for, and a delight in, the will and the ways of God. Encountering Him causes my heart to “burn within me.” Encountering Him burns away the hindering claw of the flesh and releases me to run with Him to the mountain of spices, where His fragrance perfumes the atmosphere and permeates the physical surroundings. I dance with hind’s feet, rejoicing with the Lover of my soul.

When I encounter Him, even for an instant, I want to follow and obey; I wish to lay down my life that He  would take it up and make of me what He will. I desire to forsake all for the sake of knowing Christ Jesus and dwelling near His noble and magnificent heart. I am connected to the Vine by His grace; I have but one desire and holy passion: that I may dwell in the house of YHVH all the days of my life, to behold His beauty and inquire in His temple.

I find my only true satisfaction and genuine knowledge of who I am by encountering the One who created me. By ravishing my heart, He makes me pure. So I cry:

Kiss me with the kisses of Your mouth–
For Your love is better than wine….
Your name is ointment poured forth….
Draw me away!
I will run after You.

In humility, drenched in His love as with the morning dew, we follow even as we seek, we cry for more even as He satisfies us, we mourn even as we leap with joy. The “now and not yet” is in our hearts, the sure and present promise of His great glory within us and His inheritance of majesty shown now to the powers and principalities of this present age, with a destiny to proclaim throughout endless ages the majesty of His awesome beauty and His powerful work in us, His chosen beloved.

The rational minds of men and women cannot–and will not–grasp the beauty of this truth. Rebellious and relentless reasoning constantly batter us, strengthened by the pervasive clamor of our culture and the self-demonstrating world of our senses and the seductive, whispered lies of the infernal enemy of our souls; they conspire to cast us from the delights of the Garden: walking in the cool of the day, basking in innocent and free communion; and thrust us squalling and fighting our way into the tyranny of false godhood, enchanted by the siren call of pernicious, tower-building skepticism and the arrogant cynicism of the “knowledge of good and evil.”

In his search for a statement that could not be doubted, Descartes arrived at “I think; therefore I am.” So many believe that their own rational thoughts are the sum total of their explanation for existence. But our staggering, blistering hubris has led us to destruction and silenced the gentle whisper of the Voice within us. The power of the human mind, our fractured reasoning, without humility, has slaughtered love.

I choose instead:

Rise up, my love, my fair one, and come away.

Just as intimacy between a man and woman produces a new human child, so intimacy with God produces a new creation, birthed in glory, swaddled in love–an extravagant reminder, once again, of His mercy, and an expression of hope that can change the world.